At first, thank you very much for everyone who cheers me up.
I can't reply all of you, cos I'm still bit emotional, but your comments really help me a lot.

Some of you are lost your loving pet recently like me.
Some of you remeber your pet had gone while a ago, and still love them so much. Some of you have pet now, and predict the day will come in the future. Some of you are not my closed friend, just see my art, but gave me so kind words.
Everybody's feeling that lost loving one is the same, no matter where we live.
There are friends who showed me link of nice video, they were so nice. The once about the place under raibow bridge made me so cry, I cried like until my eye couldn't open. But it gave me feeling that I'll meet my pet one day there.
The another one was Japanese song with cute animation, it reminds me Kota and my sis a lot, especially the dog in the animation is the same kind of my dog. I showed the link to my sis, she really loved it.

So thank you very much for everyone. I'm still sad, but finally I can talk about Kota without tear to my friends now.

My sis says her sprit is near by me, and waiting to go home together. I feel it, too. This is because I really wanted to eat medium rare stake last night suddenly, and it was her recent favourite food. Maybe she made me to eat it. XD
I bought a can of Australian dog food, I'll put it beside her ash. She never tried foreign dog food, she might be suprised how it tastes.

I need to leave my unit now, I'm talk to Kota.
'Come, let's go home together.' ^.^

I haven't been home for 7 years, it's good family unit.
I bought many Easter chocolate to them.
I may add a journal from Japan. It's 2C there, while Brisbane is 33C! I'm gonna shiver!

Our family dog Kota in Japan passed away today. My lil sis sent email me to let me know.She's been part of our family for almost 15 years.

She was happy, gentle, and little stupid. She was super friendly, never bark, wagged her tail to anybody. We laughed and said that she was never be able to be a guard dog. Also she often played and chased her tail, tangled herself by the leash accidentally, asked help. But when we were blue, she always stayed next to us, and kept licking us.

I haven't met her for 7 years cos I'm in Australia.I've been missing her so much, I was so excited when my sis sent me her photo.
I put her photo as my laptop wall paper always.

She got tumors early February, my family has been taking care her so much.
I wanted to back Japan as soon as possible, but I'm doing job hunting, waiting interviews. I lost my previous job cos of financial crisis, it makes difficult to go back earlier.

I already booked the ticket to Japan to meet her, I'm gonna fly there 5th of March, but she couldn't wait for me. I've been praying crazy she would be ok until I go back,My sister has kept cheering her up to wait for me, but Kota has gone today while my sister was at work. When my mother went to check her, she was already in peace with slightly smiling. She was still warm.
My family reglet no one could stay with her at the moment.
My sis sent photo of her before cremation, she's in full of beautiful flowers,her fav food, and slightly smiling.

I'm so crying now, I can't see the monitor.
I'm not sure my spelling and grammar is correct. Although I prepare myself, it is so shocked.
Sorry for you if this journal can't make sense for you.


I never ever touch her gentle fur, and can't see her tail is wagging, and can't see her beautiful black eyes.


I jost hope, she wouldn't feel any pain when she has gone.
I'm proud of her she fought her tumors with pain.

i'm sorry I couldn't meet you, Kota.
I'm so, so sorry. I love you so much.

My sis said Kota would fly to Brisbane to meet me in dream, I really hope I'll meet her when I sleep.

I couldn't make it, coudln't meet her while she was alive. I will reglet all my life.she already turned to ash. My sis keep her until I'll go back home. Our family'll bury Kota to our garden when I'll go home.

こた、間に合わなくて　ごめんね。
すごく、ごめんね。
家に来てくれてありがとう。ほんとうに楽しかった。うれしかった。
こたも　そうであれば、と　願います。
一緒にいられて　すごくうれしかった。

I'm so so sorry I couldn't meet you, Kota.
Thank you very much to come to our family.
We are so happy with you.
I hope you feel the same way.

Hi everybody, I haven't submitted anything for a while.
At first, I should say be-lated happy new year.(It's so late...but thinking of Chinese new year, it happened 2 weeks ago. So I can say it, right?)
While I haven't submitted anything, dA changed a lots! Still I'm confused how to use. In the new entry journal place... What is Header and Footer?? Where should I type?? I'm typing in 'Journal Entry' anyway,

The reason I submit this journal is, to let you know I got a hacking spam comment, and accidentally passed the comment to my friend on dA. I aporogize eveybody if I give many problems.
I didn't know it was spam,then I wasn't online for a while. When I saw my front page today, I have no idea what's goingon.
Some people kindly explained to me the situation, and suggested solutions. I did the things they suggested, hope it will be ok.



and :FaZhou: kindly commented me and explained all. Please read newest journal if you don't know about the spam comment.

To everyone who got message from me last week,(maybe Friday?)and if the comment with the link, don't click it! You will be trapped the same as me. I checked my activity and sent note to everybody. It is fortunate some people already know the spam, and blocked them.
I could only see the activity until 15 hours before, it means almost just an half day. No idea how many these spams sent with my name since last week. So I checked all my friend list, and left comments to everybody to warn and apology.

I really sorry if you got them.

Also again, I thank to everybody who explained me what I should do.

Hi everyone,

I'm looking for websites that I can submit my portfolio. I've been working at a game company as a concept artist, but I need to look for a new job now by some reasons.

I need to update my portfolio to some place. However, all my recent works belongs to the game company, therefore it may be not good to add dA with a new account.(cos everybody can see them.)

It would be great if I can find some webpage that I can submit my recent work, and show them to only paticular people with password or telling them the link.(so the works can't see many people.)

At first I thought that Yahoo brief case is good, but I found it can be only checked people have yahoo email account. It's not good. I can't ask companies I apply to get Yahoo account.
'If you want to see my work, get Yahoo email account.' LOL

Do you have any recommend place?
Please tell me.

Hi all...
I realize that I haven't been updated my journal since 2006, and it is a bit embarrasing thing. So I decided to update the journal to explain my recent situation.

I graduated my college last Decemeber,and got a bachelor digree. (Yahoooo, now I have 2 bachelor degrees! One is in Japan and other is in Australia.)

I'm applying a new visa that let me stay one year and half in Australia with work permission. I'm not sure if the immigration gives me the visa, so I feel really stress. Now I have a bridging visa.
However the one good news is, I passed an English exam that is the one of requirements to get the visa, so I'm really, REALLY happy although I'm still not sure if I can get the new visa.
The Another worrying is, if I'll apply a permanent visa in the future, it is better to get higher scores for the English exam... so I'm thinking if I should continue to go to a language school, or take a rest. I'm bit tired recently. And going a language school costs much.

The other good thing is, I got a part time job in Brisbane. It is the first job in a foregin country for me,so excited to work there. I can learn many things there, and everybody is so kind to me. I'd like to work there longer. ^.^

More recent big news?

If you were an user of SS and remember my daily comic, you mught remeber that there was a 3 eyes alien girl from SJ. The character is my sharemate avatar, and I drew some comics about her. We've been a friend for 6 years sincw I come to Brisbane. She decided to return to Japan. Her returning to Japan is a big event for me.
People come and leave, the city is changing, and I can not stop them.
I must adjust myself to a new environment.

I thank to all who support me, I can't mention each one here though. I really appreciate your kindness, and because you cheer me up, I stil live here.

Genki de yatte imasu. Arigatou. (=I'm fine, thanks.)